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Last 31 Days of 2011

2011-12-01T08:07:00.000-08:00

Gonna Start Countdown for my last 31 day of 2011.As I want to review this entire month what I have done.
Wasting my time or make a change?
01/12/2011.
Woke up as usual at early of 7.20am. Went for work at 8.30am sharp reaching office.
Start my daily routine of checking bank accounts, claims and everything.
Finally there's a buyer interested to buy away the tablet. Lowered the price from 200 to 180 and finally 150 and there we go. Sold the tablet today for RM150.
Someone supposed to come my house and let me help with his costing, so called Mr. Wong but ffk me.
Not my lost thou. Anyway I couldn't help much with that. After collecting money, I have gave my name card for my next week monday activity. Kajang. What a far place, perhaps should take a holiday then. 7 Days a week. It's going to end this week and still no Uvs.
Don't just say, walk your talk. Reminding myself about that. You can fake a smile but not a excitement. I can burn myself in fire if I want to. I just have to remind myself about that incident. This week 4 Plan 4 Sign Up! It is POSSIBLE!!!! Fuck yeah, GOnna sign up my first girl prospect!!!!

It's Just a Feeling.

2011-10-03T22:50:00.001-07:00

I disappeared from your world.
Yet, sometimes you’ll pop out of nowhere.
Sometimes passing by the places we used the hangout,
Memories will came into mind.
But hey, it’s a sweet memory.
So, let’s leave it as it is.
Just a memory.
Because we are told not to messed up the past.
It’s a part of us, where fragment of our life was given to that place, that time, that hour.
So let it be kept inside a jar.
Where part of us still together.
You moved on,
And I’m happy that you found happiness.
I started to be busy.
Stopped texting you,
Stopped scribbling your wall.
Once in a while I’ll still drop by and ask hey how are you.
But it seems like that’s the only thing we can talk about now.
How funny it is.
As lives goes on,
People meant to drop by,
Leave a part of them with us.
For those who are still with us,
Let’s treasure this time they keep with us.
Make the most out of it.
Be it the person you hate,
Be it the person you like,
Just appreciate everything.
I want to leave a part of me to all of you.
A fragment of me.
A memory of me.
So even when I die,
There are parts of me live on.

How To Change Windows 7 Logon Screen without messing up with Windows System.

2011-10-02T04:54:00.000-07:00

Windows has always never concern about changing its Windows Logon Screen to its users. Not until Windows 7 was released. Today, Windows has allowed users to change it's Logon Screen without any third party or hacks. I was searching a while for this as I once damaged the OS due to incorrect cmd and .dll file placement. So here are the step by step.

1)Download this for the registry file. Just un-rar it and double click to install this Registry. Click Yes.

2)Now, head over to the following folder:
C:\Windows\System32\oobe (“C” is your Windows Seven Installation drive)

3)Here, create a new folder named Info. Again, create a new folder inside the Info folder and rename it as backgrounds.

4)Copy your favorite image file to this folder and rename it as backgroundDefault. Note that the image must be in JPG format and the size should be less than 256 KB.

5)You are done. Reboot your system and see the change.
The following files (sorted by width-to-height ratio) are supported in C:\Windows\System32\oobe\Info\Backgrounds folder:
* backgroundDefault.jpg
* background768×1280.jpg (0.6)
* background900×1440.jpg (0.625)
* background960×1280.jpg (0.75)
* background1024×1280.jpg (0.8)
* background1280×1024.jpg (1.25)
* background1024×768.jpg (1.33-)
* background1280×960.jpg (1.33-)
* background1600×1200.jpg (1.33-)
* background1440×900.jpg (1.6)
* background1920×1200.jpg (1.6)
* background1280×768.jpg (1.66-)
* background1360×768.jpg (1.770833-)

Thanks to IntoWindows for posting this tips. All credits go to him.

Review - Rolex Oyster Perpetual Daytona Cosmograph

2011-09-13T22:58:00.000-07:00

When I first got the watch I was happy to see the fine art on it. So different from the first Tag Heuer I bought. The details and carvings on the watch are fine and 100% same as the original Rolex Oyster Perpetual Daytona. Although I ordered the one white in colour but this colour that I received is just fine. This watch also comes with 3 sub-dials. Sub-dials at 3 o'clock is date, 6 o'clock is 24 hour indicator, 9 o'clock is either Day/Month. I myself is not sure what it is. With the exceptional beautiful carvings, but the sub dials are not made to function as the same as the originals. However it is coated with Sapphire Crystal instead of normal hardened crystal.
The movements in this automatic self winding machine is smooth. More smooth than the previous Tag Heuer I owned. The stainless steel is also not as heavy as i anticipated. The only thing it lack of is having the laser carved Rolex logo at 6o'clock. Other than that, everything is perfect. A very satisfying product. It also includes a screw in pin for all 3 pin on right side. This is a feature on most of the high end class. Also a 3 way screw in pin for the middle button to adjust different features on the watch. Overall this item is actually worth to buy.

Review - Tag Heuer Grand Carrera Calibre 36 Replica

2011-09-13T22:45:00.000-07:00

Just got this watch few months back then. Since it's my first automatic watch I'm wearing it happily till today. However on upon receiving this watch there were small defects on the watch such as minor scratches. Function included in the watch is 24Hour Indicator, Date, Day Of The Week. 24 hour indicator at 6o'clock, Date at 3o'clock, Day Of The Week at 9o'clock.
The watch is actually quite comfortable at wearing and actually could last quite long even though leaving it on the table overnight as I was worried needing to set the time everyday. But got to admit that the subdials are rarely used by me. And on top of that, the 10o'clock ring is also useless. Eventhough it could turn around to calculate the 1/10th sec, the second hand is not made to function as a chronograph. After a few months, the layer on the 5o'clock button has been came off as if the watch was wrapped by a layer of thin plastic. This watch is still at home, I'll wear it once in a while. Since it's still my very first watch.

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Limits

2011-02-26T20:46:00.000-08:00

Limits,what do you think about this word?
All these years, we have restraining ourself to achieve more because we have been and had putting limit on ourself.
"I can't do this anymore, this is too hard for me. I can't hold on anymore,I give up" Sounds familiar?
All these are just excuses and it is what stop us from moving towards in life.
If you believe yourself, there's no limits in our life.
Experts have said human can stay no longer in water holding your breath more than 3-5minutes.
However Steffan Missoud have proof these experts wrong.
He had managed to hold is breath in the water for 11minutes and 35seconds and this brings himself into the Book of World Guiness Record.
Why?
He believe that this is not what his limits are and proving that the experts are wrong.
This is what we should learn from him.Not limiting ourself to what can we do.
Limits are nothing, there is no limits for us.
I once heard a partner of mine said, The Sky Is The Limit.
So let us reach our for the sky. Dare to dream! Hold on to what you are doing. Never give up.
Let us break this limit.
One quote that I would like to share with you all from someone I very respect and I know it will be usefull to you and me.
"I decide where my limits are,no one else;I decide if my limits can be broken,no one else!
By V Managing Director-Pathman Senathirajah

Hence, let's break our limits and show the world that there are no limits! Like how Steffan Missoud did!

This isn't what it supposed to be

2009-12-08T05:05:00.000-08:00

Something is just not correct today. Today was my chemistry exam. Before the exam started I just not in the mood to study anymore -.-" That's so wrong as I wanted to score at chemistry.However,what done is done we can't change a bit about it anymore. Today after ended our examinations most of us were filled with joys but for me I don't know how I felt. It's just that I don't think I'm happy. Those schooling days won't be there anymore.Next year we will lack a feeling and emotion. That is the feeling of "Owh its gonna start school again". Can you understand? Every year we always had this feeling. Tomorrow is gonna be another new semester,meeting our friend after 2 months of depart. But now it won't be just 2 months maybe years and years or never. It's a feeling that I can't understand. Always thought we could see each other again and this is not the end, its just another new journey of our life.However this seperation somehow brings sorrow. Guess that's why I'm not happy? Those jokers and actors in our class wont be seen again. I'm so going to miss you all. Thou this is not the end, its our seperation. This make me feels like being in Primary School after UPSR. It's been 5 years I never met my ex-classmates. Really miss them,wondered how they've become. Next year,most of us will have cars and driving license.Able to go around.Isn't it wierd? During our schooling days we always hope that holidays was tomorrow and we don't even seems to care about our classmates.Not till the very end when each of us walking our own path of life. This seperation means something to all of us. Next year,we will be adult and I guess we will have different view of our life with our view now.

T______T chemist!!!

2009-12-06T23:25:00.000-08:00

Been studying since 9 o'clock. Still trying to understand some parts of form 5 syllabus -.-" Some I could understand easily,some I don't even know what are those... Still have a little bit more time to study I guess.
Hope by night I could understand and memorized more things then.
Feel like wanna have a break a while before my brains facing reclyundic cycle error. CHEMISTRY!!!!

There's always a better tomorrow

2009-12-03T09:01:00.000-08:00

On tuesday(dec 1),I was having my accounts paper(SPM). The paper 1 was quite easy.After recess I did all the usual routines until when I sat down and flipped open my wallet and notice that my IC is not there!!! I panicked a while. I went out of the hall and went to my bag to find it.However it is not there. I think of running to the canteen and search for it but it is not worth the time. So I went back to my place and sat there.I told the avigilator in charge. She told me to ask a Surat Akuan Sekolah if I cant find my IC on the following exam. So I gave a sigh of relieve. When the bell rang,we started flipping through the 1st question.Usually Dokumen. The dokumen was easy, and basicly I know all about it. Finished the dokumen in the first 30 minutes. I look at the clock above my head and gave another sigh of relieve. When I turn to the following page and saw "Akaun Perdagangan" I thought it will be easy so I read through the maklumat tambahan and I decided to skip that question. I go on to the following question.The following question is Pembubaran Perakaunan.I did it like river flow till the last part where the Bank isn't tally. So I skipped to the following question.It's about drawing a graph with all those TPM,MCS... I just learnt it a day before exam so it is still fresh in my mind. I started drawing. Everything was fine till the line for jumlah hasil and jumlah kos isn't correct.So I SKIPPED AGAIN!!!
Finally, something that I know how to do. Pelupusan Aset. I did it all finish and hope there's nothing wrong to it.I look back at time and notice I just have 1 hour left. I kept flipping through the pages between the 3 un-done question. I started with the Pembubaran Akaun but it still isn't tally so I move on to the Graph. I repeated this a several times till I gave up hope as time was drawing to an end. I took my pen and write down the Akaun Perdagangan as I usually do.In the end, my KKK wasn't tally and I look at the time one more time. 5 minutes left.I quickly finish as fast as posible for my other question. I finished everything until the last minute I know what did I do wrong that causes the Akaun Realisasi to not tally. I put something wrong in it. It was such an easy question but I failed to tally that account.I was in despair.I looked at avigilator walk come by me and took the paper from me. At that instant,2 or 3 drops of tears rolled down my cheeks.I rubbed the tears away and told myself there's nothing you can do about it already. Inside I was filled with rage and anger of myself for my carelessness. I wasn't sastified. I feel like shouting. Zen fetch me and some friends to have a chit chat at a mamak stall nearby.When he fetch us,I rolled down the window and shouted as loud as I could. Its like giving out all my rage and anger towards the air. It definitely felt much better. After that we went to CC to release our despair and tensions.Around 6pm I walked home with Rashidi. At home,then I noticed my watch was missing.Oh great,what a day I have. Lost IC,new bought watch, and failing in a subject that I usually excel in? I really felt sorry towards my tution teacher Kin Loong and my friend who helped me in accounting. It's like I did so much to excel in this subject and this is what I get?Well, human still need to sleep though.
So I slept that day very late.
The next day,I woke up and get ready to go Jing Ming's house to have a small group revision. Kang wah called me to confirm wheter am I going to Jing Ming House or not. His mum came and pick me up and fetch us both to Jing Ming house.In the car,his mum told me all sorts of good stuff about China being better than Europe now.After reaching Jing Ming house,we started study physics.I wanted to thanks Jing Ming,Jong Kit, and Kang Wah here for giving me so much tips and helping me solving all those physics problems.Can't do it without you guys helping =)
So I focused studying on form 5 chapters as it was more interesting.I saw this method on MrSaimun web saying that you can copy answer from behind and while learning it. So I tried it. I finish the whole ZOOM f5 book by doing so. I did only Section A of the Paper 2 in all chapters.At least I learnt some stuff alright? =) That night I couldn't sleep as well. I rolled on the bed since 11.30 till 1 something in the midnight. I don't even know what time did I fall asleep.
Today,when I'm getting ready to go school. I found my IC!!! and my LOST WATCH!!! I was so glad. I went to school with a good emotion =)
So like usually had my Physics paper 1 at first. It was quite okay because some of them I got read until. Then paper 2 came, the paper was quite okay but I think it considered as not hard because most of the questiong is like common sense. And lastly Paper 3.It's like a free gift to all SPM students. The questions were merely fill in the blanks. Even if our experiment on the section B of paper 3 got all wrong we will get marks at the Section A(28marks). We require a 80 marks in order to get a passing mark of 42.18++ I just hope I could pass this time =)
Well,the title says all. If your day is worst today,maybe tomorrow is a better day.Hang in there! =)

Things are getting worst all around the world.

2009-10-05T08:04:00.001-07:00

Yeah,the news are reporting all sorts of disaster around the globe(Maybe not all around). From quakes to landslides.Is it me or it sounds like the end of the world is near? Perhaps both are wrong? We will never know the answer. But one thing I know is,this world was created with a uniform or balanced system.Maybe its my theory but everything in this world must be balanced. Say if there's no more evil in this world,what is good then? If there's no more sorrows or hardships,how do we enjoy our life or what is happiness then? Get what I mean? All sorts of things is happening around us.It's just that we didn't notice about it.Many people sufers from starvation and many more while some of us enjoying our sucess. Can't we care more about those helpless people? At least let's have a caring heart for them.Say prayers for those who were harmed in the disaster? Hope more survivors could be found? Every seconds passes by is extremely important.As each second could determine a life or death of someone. So let's pray together for those unfortunate and may god be with them.

Friends

2009-09-28T05:53:00.000-07:00

I promised Niki to write my essay on my blog once I got it back.So now it has and I'm gonna post it =)
The title Of the Essay is "FRIENDS"

"Friend", it is such a simple word yet brings a whole lot of meaning behind it.However, each individuals have their own opinion about this word.There was once a person said "Friends are like a piece of glass,we see it everyday yet do not notice about it.Till it is broken,then we only regret for not appreciate its beauty". I strongly agree with it as we usually don't appreciate our friend till we lost them. Nowadays, most human take friend as a tool to be used when they are upset or in rage. For instance, J and B usually won't talk to each another. But whenever J has problems and he seeks help from B,B willingly help him out.But when B had problems and seeks helps from J,J ignored him.Is this truly what friends are? No!"God gave us friends because they were supposed to be our brothers and sisters but aren't"a wise man once said.How true! But why does friend had now become a tool? To be toyed around?

Even so,I believe that there are still friends who are loyal to friendship. True friends are people who are there when you need them, they are like angles sent down by God to give us a helping hand.True friends also shares their joys and sorrows together. Although there are up and downs in a friendship,never give up trying to fix the potholes on the friendship. Because true friends are like rare gems in the world. If you lose a true friend, you won't know when will you will get another.As a gift of God,we should appreciate them.People who don't are brainless.

When you are sick,while your parents were not there,who was there for you? When you cry, who wipe those tears for you? When you got nobody else, who was there for you? All the answer to these are friends.Can't you see how important are they in our daily life? People who have no friends usually are people who have low-self esteem or shy to talk to others. These people will feel lonely along time.Slowly,darkness will creep into their life and drive them crazy.You can try how it feels by not talking to anyone for one day.That is how they felt.Wanting to talk to someone but not able to.I've been down that road before and trust me that it isn't something that you want to go through. In long term,it could probably cause someone to go insane.

Now there are two type of friends in this world.I classify them into two categories, one is the "Angel" and the other is "Devil". The "Angel" friends are usually people who really cares about you.They are people with a caring heart and takes friendship as a serious matter. While the "Devil" on the other hand are people who care nonetheless about you. They are people who make friends with yo in order to achieve something.Once they achieved their goal,they dump you aside and never see you anymore.As clear as it seems, the "Angels" friends are more preferable compared to "Devil"

Among friends,there is this invisible thread connecting to each another.I usually call this thread "The Thread Of Friendship". Some people have thread as thick as a thumb while some have thread as thin as a string.One is the type of friend that has strong bond of friendship while another is still in the early stage. Friendship could be also said as a co-operation among two human. This is because both side have to help each other out when they needed or else it will be useless if only one side does all the job. As the saying goes "Friend in need is a friend indeed."

So,what are the requirement to be a good friend?First and for all, be true not to yourself but to your friends too.Lying to your friend is in the top not-to-do list no matter what.Secondly, try talk to your friends about your problems as they might give you some good advise.whenever you do mistake, apologize immediately.Delaying the word "Sorry will have heavy consequences. You could try to understand them,know their likes and dislikes so you won't bring them unwanted understandings.For example, A dislikes fish but you always buy fish for A. A will think that you are trying to laugh at him/her and this will make friendship tore apart if not not handled with care.Furthermore,share your joys and sorrows with them,don't keep it to yourself.We also must be forgiving in a way that they know you accepted their apology.However if you tried everything and they still do not want to be friends with you,do not force them.As I said earlier, friendship needs two to make an effort not one.Learn to know when to let go and when to hold on. Lastly friendship is all about what you can give, not what you can gain from it.

Although you may disagree with me but everyone has their own piece of mind and this mine.Appreciate "them" before you can't

Mountain Hiking

2009-09-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

Today I woke up 5.30 am to get ready for my journey. We took off around 5.40++
We reach our destiny around 6 oclock and wait all the member to attend the hike arrive. Around 6/7 when the sun raise from the peek of the mountain we started our journey. Some droplets were falling off from the sky as we were going on. Till around a quarter of our journey.Heavy downpour turned us into soaked chicken.We were all wet. Rain and sweat we couldn't differentiate because it all seems the same. Until a certain point I saw thing bridge that was hanging few meters from the ground... It was okay but I cut my hand while holding the two ropes beside it. Then there was this hill after that. It was like at least 4 stories high but with all roots and some bricks as stair. It was 45 degree towards the top.When I reached the top I was gasping for air. I thought I was going to breakdown but luckily I didn't. After passing by that hard climb all the road before and after seems easy.But we only go half of the path then we had to go back as the downpour was getting heavy.We leave at 8 in the morning.It is my first time climbing mountain and I won't forget it forever =)
Maybe next time I should go on mountain hiking more.

This is not the end..

2009-09-17T09:17:00.000-07:00

It may seems like everything had come to an end. Ended with sorrows and failure yet its actually not. Its a time where we need to learn from a lesson before its really too late. Trials has passed(although got 1 more subject),now there's just not much time left till SPM. Really,if I weren't to woken up, I'll be still sitting under the tree and looking into the sky and thinking about my failures and regret. Its never too late to regret I told myself. At least, this time I know what my mistakes are and I know what to improve. Plans need to be tweaked a little. SPM isn't just another normal exam. Got to take a few steps ahead before it steps on my head. This trial,even if I fail I have my own reason or should I say I'm finding an excuse? I'm just being lazy all these time. All those question,it isn't something new.I did it before and its exactly the same. If I were to be ready earlier, the outcome could have change.Therefor, I should start studying now instead of later so I won't repeat this silly mistake again. I'm just taking a detour in my journey of life and I'm going to leave this detour to another one. It sure will take some time and efforts but at least I know there are people who are supporting me =)
Thanks to all my friends who helped me.You guys are so great. Everytime I have problem you all are just there for me. Thanks to God for giving such a precious gift. I'll try my very best to appriciate it.

My agony and rage

2009-09-10T07:29:00.000-07:00

I'm ruining my life with my bare hands... Even god can't help me now because even I won't save myself.This is a stupidity I will never forgive. How can a man be such a jerk? Trials supposed to be taken seriously,not for fun. What am I doing now? Playing facebook? What the hell am I doing?
I was supposed to read chemistry all day long,I did it.I read it through but without memorizing it. Tried memorizing it... still when I see the paper... I know that I've read it before but I just can't recall it. The whole paper changed suddenly.From a angel to a devil.At first glance,I saw all the question was so familiar but when I took my pen,it grinned evilly at me. I was so fed-up with it. But I tried filling out everything. Even it's junk I tried to fill the paper up. But deeply inside me,I know the answer was wrong. This time,I am very proud with Kang Wah,he did his preparation better than me.This time,it really collapsed. My dreams and hopes... They were broken into pieces as so as my heart. Why did I not know that till today?
There was so much to learn about that I haven't learn. I have no talents like others had,whY I never tried harder till now? It's too late to save myself from some subjects.I had few subjects already confirm that I'm going to fail. But if I could,I hope the rest will at least be a B. Three fail is already more than enough to kill me. More than that,I couldn't accept.
However,why I'm still doing so much of useless stuff despite the fact that I know that time is running out? I've wasted too much of time on useless things.
I'm crying deeply inside me yet part of me is in rage.
This time,I really can't forgive myself.
Not a single bit.Tomorrow I still have moral and sejarah 1.
The 3 confirm fail subject is chemistry,sejarah and perhaps add math.
I really don't want to fail my physics and add math. I really like them when I first enter 4Sopan. They are the reason I enter sub-science class.Chemistry is the main reason why I enter sub-science class. I love it so much,but why do I fail it? I could say one word to describe myself - lazy. If I love it so much, why didn't I pass it? Today I know that I've been always finding reasons to cover up my lazyness.
However,its too late. Time is not reverse-able,what done is done. I can do now is to save my next few subjects(Math,Add Math,Chemistry 3,Physics 1,2,3,Moral).
Although it may be useless,but GOD,if you were there please help me!!! I really can't do this all alone... I really don't want to be looked down and disappoint people around me. No matter how much I hate myself,I don't want that to happen.
I now really hope it's not too late...
I'm okay, its just that,I really must speak out my heart because I can't hold it any longer within me or I'll be crazy. Don't worry about me because that is the last thing I ever want you to do.

~Comfort~
My Despair and agony,
Some could share the same feeling,
Some couldn't
But whatever it seems,
It wasn't as bad as it look.
Try look another way,
At least you've tried.
At least you now know your mistakes,
Change it before it changes you.

By: Chiken 11pm/09/09/10

The Chemistry Strikes Again!!!

2009-09-09T00:32:00.000-07:00

Left few more hours before the exam starts... I sure don't want to give up on this subject.I loved it so much >___< I will never regret for taking this subject. Oh god,if you were there please give me some hints =x
Struggling alive to study this precious subject... To all Students taking chemistry tomorrow, GOOD LUCK!!!! Never give up till the very end!

A special day

2009-09-07T05:36:00.000-07:00

People usually celebrate birthday by throwing a party or hang out together but instead I went to the museum with my tutor and his family. I thought visiting the museum is boring however I enjoyed myself there by looking all those past that has been forgotten. All those who sacrifice themselves for our unity and peace will be always lived in our blood even we forgot about it. Thinking back,it's quite long since I last went out with my family. Going out with them,make me felt the warmth of having a family. I felt sort of touched by the way they interact with each other. How long since the last time you went out with your family and have fun together? Try remember.
Is it long? Or just went out few days ago?
Anyway, we went to Mid Valley after that. We went there and had lunch at KFC. I ordered Chezzy Wedges. My favourite food at KFC. =)
After that we went to this shop that sells candy. I bought these really chocolate that looks like stone. After trying out some delicious candy,we went to MPH. I tried finding the A4 Examination Pad that I wanted but they never sold. Then, T2 say she had some and gave it to me.
Went home after that. We were sitting on my tutor's car which is quite small - VIVA.
At the front seat,my tutor's mum and a child.While behind,me,WKW,my tutor's sis and T2 had to squeeze in.So I was like squatting down all along the journey.My legs sort of pain due to the block of blood flow.This causes both of my legs to numb for a moment.
However,everything went well after that. Came home and started thinking about how to study sejarah. -.-"
It's one of the subject that I always planned to fail but it can't fail or I'm dead.
Sigh... Maybe I should just try give it a shot.I'm going to read it later after finish this blog.
At home,my family helped me celebrate my birthday. I had a green tea flavoured Cake since I always yearn for Green Tea.Haha.
However,part of me was feeling sad although I supposed to be happy.Maybe it's because someone isn't here with me for this particular day.
Thinking about it,I have a different view about a person's birthday.
It supposed to be a day we be grateful to our parents,
For not giving up on us,
To our dad that gave us so much support since we were small,
To our mum that protected us since we were not yet born,
To our doctor that helped us to come into this beautiful world,
To our teacher who teached us how to become a better man.
It's this day that our mum that suffered the most and still held in there just to have a glimpse of our face. Isn't that what it's all about?
But why aren't we grateful? For what they've done for us?
Why do we celebrate birthday and yet they are having a party for us instead the other way?
Can't you see? The love they share for us has a value that nothing could replace.
Be more grateful and love them while you can.

Some things will change along time and some wont...

2009-09-06T07:23:00.000-07:00

Few more hours to my birthday.I never notice till Sue Sim told me,weird huh? By the way thanks a lot Sue Sim!!! Few more hours after my birthday then its your turn =)
Grow old another year.Each times we grow old, we tends to be more matured. Being older means having more responsibility.Talking about time, as we all know... Time waits for no man. But times changes a man into another.
I always watch news about teenagers and drugs,etc.I never expected someone that once was so faithful to god could turn into a jerk.It's as if something impossible to happened yet it happened. Hearing those news,those gossip from the whisperers.Really made me disappointed with who you are. However I believed that part of you still remain the same.
Never imagined that time can completely change an angel into a devil.
This world we live in,
is full of mysteries and logic that sometimes we couldn't considered it as logic.
I don't really know what to write at the moment,
Guess my mind is sort of confused right now... However to everyone out there. Try to be yourself. Don't try to imitate others and be your true-self =)

I'm tired... Really really tired. Yet anger filled up my heart.

2009-09-01T04:23:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I never slept the whole night.Once I shut my eyes,I saw all those account paper flying everywhere in my mind making my brain to work when it supposed to rest.
For the whole night,I tried to slept.Rolling to each side of the bed trying to find a comfortable position to sleep.Ended up rolling myself till the morning. Lucky thing was I kept my eyes shut all the times or I would turn into a PANDA! Today in school I almost went into a fight as predicted by one of my horoscope readings.Although I not really into these type of things...But I certainly almost want to blow a punch on someone's face. What is it so funny? You tell me! A friend that is caring really that much a joke to you? If so,then what am I to you? A Joke too? I tried my best to be calm as possible yet you kept making fun of me. Even if you do not appreciate my help,you don't need to stab so deep into my heart. You are just making unwanted misunderstandings. If it's so funny,so be it! I won't give a damn about it anymore.
After those sleepless night and you still want to raise my anger? I really can't understand you. But I'll forget about this forever. If you want to do it again,I'll fight until the very end that you will regret...
Just ignore me... I don't need your sympathy and jokes.Keep it to yourself.
I hope this person one day realize what he done is not funny. What if people badmouth about you in front of you every day. One times a day is enough,but you need to tell the same jokes more than 3 times.If you considered that as a joke,I'll laugh no at your joke but at you. Your nothing more than a scum-bag.
After trying so much,this is what I get? I really can't believe it.

My existence is sometime nothing more than nothing.

2009-08-31T03:00:00.000-07:00

My existence in this world has come to a point that sometime I felt like I wanted to scream out so that someone could have noticed me.Its not that I'm emo or anything.
Just that sometimes,I really can't stand people ignoring my thought.What more when I'm thinking how to help you and what you did in the end? Giving me that expression that you care no more. I once believed my existence was to helped all my friends to have a better life.Yeah,I know some of you would say "Oh really?","craps.." etc.But trust me,what I'm saying is true. None of you could understand what road I have walked through,tried so much to help you even though I don't have time to help myself.I put my priority as to help you guys out as much as possible. In this coming trial,it will determine our stays at JL tution. Can't you guys be a little more serious? Especially you **. Not only me, even JL himself have gave more hints than anyone that you should work harder.Not for me and him,but for yourself.You had a dream at the moment,I am happy for that.However I hope your dream wont be as fragile as glass.It's the will that matter to you. I know sometimes I've been childish,but whenever its time to get serious,you should be serious.
Further more,I'm not that good myself.I could say I have no rights to say you since I'm not much better but you.But at least I hope I could wake you up from your day dreaming.I was once in your position till one day God made me wake up with what I want.That day,I said something and I meant it. "Every man wasn't born with stupidity, its just that human tends to find reasons to cover up their lazyness''
Such lies won't help you much but only destroy your life.
Maybe you could say I'm trying to insult you,but helping you is really my true intentions. I don't want to regret to not able to help friends while I could.We will never know when we will be taken home by God.So this is the least I could do and I shall do.I hope one day you would understand my good intentions to help you

P.S. Here's a song I want all of you to listen

The Past wasn't supposed to be forgotten but a lesson to be remembered

2009-08-27T08:53:00.000-07:00

Hi,I'm back but not for long.These few days having tution at Sg.Way
Just only came back from a 3 days 2 night tution.I know... It sounds weird right?
But yea,its 3 days 2 nite.On the first day we started tution at MacDonald(SS2) during the late night hours(11pm++). After everyone(Rashid,Calvin,Choon Wai,Kang Wah) arrived,
we started our lesson. Did some Penyata and Documents.Without noticing the hours flew by so fast.The clock was as if its whispering to me,it was trying to tell me I supposed to sleep.So as my body.Around 5am,me choon wai finished our works. I had a Chicken Burger while choon wai had the same with me just with an add-on Apple Pie.I was kind of poor at that time or could I say I ran out of cash. =/
After that,we chat a while about our futures and exams.Its 6 in the morning,so our teacher called it a break for us. He fetched me,Calvin and Rashid to Calvin's house to have some rest.Once I shut my eyes,everything went black and I felt into a deep sleep.After for some time I heard Calvin woke up to go toilet.I felt chill flow through my spine.I was shivering,tried to cover myself with the jacket my dad lend me.
He took a blanket for me."aaa...so much warmer now" I thought.I wrapped myself in the warm and comfortable blanket and went back to dreamland.
Not long after that,Calvin woke up.The door made us all wake up.I was surprised when he told me it's 2PM!!! We supposed to go tution at 8AM!!! Couldn't believe we slept that long.So we quickly tidy up and rushed to tution. When we reached there,no one was there except our teacher.He told us no one came except choon wai.Poor kid..... Came alone.Feel bad though cause we supposed to come with him.Well... we went along the daily routine revising chapters by chapters for Accounts.It ended at 10pm. Me and Rashidi had to walk back since Chen Chong's car was full.
Upon reaching Calvin's house,it was already 10.30pm.Rashid went to take a bath while I search the famous youtube for videos to show them.
I forgot the links,I'll post up once I get a hold of it.
We ended up going to bed on 12.30am.Worst part was we need to wake up at 4.30am to Buka Puasa with Rashid.I was thinking about the amount of time we had to take a nap.
But once we get on bed,I was keep sneezing.I guess the dust made me so.After that,we chat a while on our past.Those memorable times.Really missed it.Its a time where we couldn't go back but its a time that could be remembered forever and always. =)
I guess we chat till around 2.30 and we fall asleep.When I woke up at 4.30am,I felt sort of dizzy.I can't even stand still but I tried to walk as stable as I could.After walking few minutes,my mind became clearer and my head wasn't that heavy.We went to a new mamak stall opened recent at Road 6. Their roti canai was one of a kind.One of the best roti canai in Sungai Way I could say! =)
You guys should try it out if you are the type who love to eat roti canai or love to eat something that could sastify your appetite without using lots of cash.
After eating our breakfast,we walked back to Calvin house and sleep.Although I know sleeping after eating is harmful to our body,I still felt asleep as I couldn't resist the beauty of dreamland.But this time we set alarm so we won't be too late for tution.
Well... Today we did documents for the whole day.Although it's sort of tiring,but at least it helped us to know more about it and get used to its *form*.
What a tiring day.Finally went home today and ate some delicious meal that my dad prepared. By the way,Kai Lan is a really nice vegetable.Don't know why I like it so much after eating once at Choon Wai house.
I apologise if I wrote to long,but I did my updates at least already right? XP
I don't want later got someone say I never update. *stares at SL* ;)
Have a good day everyone!

Thanks For Helping Me Passing Through My Night

2009-07-22T02:30:00.000-07:00

Thanks to nikky and Siew Ling for talking to me last night.Feel much more relieved after chatting with you two =)
Thank god for no letting the prediction happen.Hope it will be wrong forever. The incident yesterday made me think about a lot of things.I was imagining if a tsunami hit Malaysia,everything on my very lovely Selangor will just swept off.Everything in sight will just disappear in moments and no one could do anything.It made me realized that I had to do good deeds in order to repent my sins in the past.It also made me remember how precious is all my friend to me.I sure won't want to lose them just like that.Will try my very best to spend the rest of my life before it is too late. All of you are irreplaceable.Nothing is more valuable than a strong friendship among us.Life is really fragile,we could lose anything in just a blink. I've imagine the worst thing might happened last night.Thankfully... All those was just theories that wasn't proved to be correct yet.The next theory waiting to be revealed is the end of the world.Maybe I'm thinking a little too far and much but its worth thinking a while about our future and what we could do with all the time left currently before it went out?
Today could be last day of mine,posting about my daily life.Not to mean that I'll never gonna post again.Just that,it is the time where I should get some rest maybe.
Having a break after for all these days of laptop-ing.
Well... Guess that I should be able to let go my desire for facebooking and msn-ing for now.Hopefully my determination is strong enough =)
Lastly,Thank You All My Friends~~~

A Disturbing Discovery

2009-07-21T07:22:00.000-07:00

I was having a dream yesterday night. I was in this place where I suddenly look up to the sky.Suddenly I saw the sun, was becoming black partially.And entirely turn the whole sky into darkness.I woke up after then and realized it was just a dream.
It was a solar eclipse if I'm not wrong.I went to school and talked to friends about it.Weird enough,they told me on 22nd July 2009 which is tomorrow there will be a solar eclipse.But this solar eclipse is not a usual eclipse.It will be the first longest solar eclipse in the 21st centuries.However,there was a very scary and deadly theory about it.My friend told me that, there's a probability there will be a tsunami and earthquake will happen in the following day.I was kind of worried thinking about it.I went through the net and found these theories about it.To summarize it,when solar eclipse was formed.The moon,earth and sun are in a straight line.There's gravitational force from 3 planet pulling against each other during the eclipse.Hence,causing our earth tide to be rise and might even cause earthquake.The theory was denied by Malaysian Meteorological Department.However their recent post today about a moderate earthquake has occurred with magnitude 5.2 on Richter scale in Mindanao, Philippine Islands at 3.13 pm on 21 July 2009. The earthquake epicenter is located at 6.0 north latitude and 126.1 east longitude, 871km northeast of Lahad Datu happened. This has proven the theory of Hans Lehner's Earth Quake prediction to be correct partly.According to his record,tsunami and major earthquake will take place in the region that the solar eclipse occur 6 hours before the eclipse start.
And now, Philippine has already shown the first earthquake before eclipse.
If his prediction was correct,most of Asian Country would be flooded by tsunami or attacked by major earthquake. 6 Hours is not enough to evacuate the entire country as it is just few hours away from now.This is a really eerie and disturbing fact discovered.If there's god,I pray to you that his prediction will not happened and Protect the entire world from this natural disaster.Let us pray together...

To read the entire post Click The Links Below
http://www.garagegames.com/community/blogs/view/15946
http://www.met.gov.my/

The Generation-X Is Coming To An End[2Days]

2009-07-20T06:14:00.000-07:00

Yeah,I have 2 more days to do my things with my laptop.Something wierd happened to me since yesterday or maybe few days before.I have been shedding tears for no reason.
The wierdest thing about it is only one part of my eyes are shedding tears while the other wont.Feels so miserable to keep wiping off my tears from my left eye.People might think I'm crying.Who know? Maybe it's my soul that is crying inside me because it cant bare to leave all these enjoyment of this era of technology.I also had influenza, making me feel worst everyday when I wake up.Don't worry it's not A(H1N1).
Taking my medicine,hope to cure soon.Can't stand this sickness all day long.Plus, with my emotion is a bit down now due to leaving you all.However with all these,I managed to finally woke up.Glad I did woke up before everything is too late.It won't be long before the trials are coming and the SPM.Am I stressing myself?No,I deserve it since I was too lazy.Either way,I already started my first step.First I need to finish mastering one of my subject before going onto another subject.I hope I could finish one subject during this week.Probably burning the midnight oil.Read a book about sleeping less but getting energetic.Haven't read it finish thou.It's a good book,teaching us how to sleep 5-6 hours a day and be more active compared to those who sleep 6-8 hours daily.Every seconds now counts to me,as my time and generation-X is coming to an end. Won't know wheter will I cry when the day has come to return the laptop...

Have a nice day,
Yours Truly,
Then Chi Chern

I'm so sorry but I love all of you~!

2009-07-19T06:07:00.000-07:00

I'm so sorry but I love you~~!(Adapted from Big Bang-Lies).Next time whenever a person apologize,sing it that way.Be cool~! =)
Anyway,I'm going to return my laptop on the coming Wednesday. I had a wonderful time knowing all of you. I'm sure gonna miss my blog and facebook,and all of my friends online.Really sad to leave this all behind for moment.I will not going to be online,talking about silly stuff anymore till I buy a new desktop or laptop. The good side of it is I could be more focused on what I need to do.On the bad side,I'm gonna miss all my best chatty friends.This includes my best zi mui,Siew Ling.My 3 most friendly owner and friend, Ken Jiu,Nik Yasmin and Cindy Hwui.All my chat-able friends and those who were not mentioned here.I love all of you. I'm really sad that we are not going to be chatting all night long anymore. Calling each other on the webcam,talking those nonsense on the Messenger. Downloading those freeware programs,joking together and those LOL. If we have the fate,we'll be able gather once more and do it all over again.My leaving doesn't mean the end of all but a start of something new.Now I may not be online,but part of my soul is always giving you support. I'll be always beside of you no matter what happens.I'm so sorry but I love you~~~Really... I'm sorry but I love all of you~~~

From Your Sincerely,
Then Chi Chern

Without A Heart

2009-07-18T09:24:00.000-07:00

Today,I was told to listen to a song. The title of the song is "Without A Heart" by 8Eight.I watched the mv.Couldn't say that I watched it as I only listen to song instead of watching.I could sense it a sad song even though I can't understand korean.However I watched the second time after I was told to watch it. The MV is about a human in love with a vampire.They were deeply in love with one another.The man tried o make the vampire into human.The man found a solution but before the man could turn her into human,the man died.Leaving the vampire alone.The vampire felt empty and has lost the will to continue living.In the end,the vampire decided to commit suicide since she has no more reason to live on.
Such deep love among them,could not be found anymore in these earth that we live.
A sacrifice for love.Can you do it?
Almost shed tears while watching it.
It's your turn to watch it. =)

Prank

2009-07-18T00:13:00.000-07:00

Have you ever played a prank on your friend and in the end u was prank-ed in the end?
Imagine This:
A guy just walked into the house with that face that showing he is upset of something.
You surely will walk to him and asked him what happened.
Now,another friend of your walk in.And the first guy just walked away furiosly and slammed the door very hard.The second friend walked into the same room and you started to hear swearing and things was threw around.The door however was closed.You wanted the walk into the room, another friend advised you not to.After a few moments,the friend that advised you rush into the room and join the fight.You yourself now alone outside.Hearing all the things was threw all over the room and those swearing.You walked to the room.You opened the door and they were just dancing and shouting.They said "Got cha". Can u imagine about it? xD
It's funny.ok now the second prank start.
You started to act furios,and yelled at them "WHY DID YOU ALL DO THIS TO ME?! I TRUST YOU ALL SO MUCH!!! ITS NOT FUNNY!!!" you slammed the door and went out from the room. All the people in the room put the blame on the person who came up with the idea and asked that person to go apologize.If he is a good friend,he surely will go and apologize.So this person walk to you and hold your hand and said "I'm sorry" with the innocence face.You started laughing rolling on the floor. Haha..
Isn't it funny? I watched it on a video on Youtube.It's a series called "Super Juniors-Full House" Episode 1-5. I forgot which episode but you should watched it anyway =)

Don't Know What To Write =/

2009-07-16T03:01:00.000-07:00

Really had no idea what I should write today.Hmm... Well today,I never went to school.
Cuz not feeling well.By the way something happened yesterday which is really scary.
I was at school feeling dizzy and sleepy.So without noticing,I closed my eyes.Then I somehow appeared in this builiding that was very tall.I saw a human,I couldn't see the face of this human figure.The figure just jump of the roof.I was at a building similar to STERLING which is at least 20 stories high judging by the view of the city from there.The human jumped off and there was this very strong wind blew the human over to another block.I woke up right away.It happened so fast like its just happened within a blink.As I recall I closed my eyes for only less than 10 seconds and saw so much things.After that I went to toilet to clear up my mind.It was then my leg was cut by a water hose.I couldn't even believe how it happened.The thing is not sharp and it cut through my skin quite deep.However it never bled till I reached back my class.It wasn't serious but I was confused with what happened.But I only could see that both thing wasn't good.Could it be a sign of something big is about to happen? Or what I saw was real?Hope it won't be the way I saw it.

My Point Of View

2009-07-15T08:08:00.000-07:00

We live in a world full off our problems and what we have to learn is how to solve them.These problems could come in many ways,relationship,knowledge and many more.
However we must have the courage to accept our lost and learn from our mistake instead of wrong down till the very end.One thing that I learned in the past few days,friend plays a very important role in our life.Friend is one thing all man-kind should have. A person without a friend is only living a dull life.Without friend you won't be what are you today.Most of us didn't notice about it,but friends does affect our decision,our mind,and in many way.I would like to use this opportunity to thanks one of my friend,MS SL. She thought me hnow to be a more confidence person and also thought me about how to be ourselves. Being ourselves is actually very important.We we're born into this world in different ways and each of us are different.What is the use of being born into this world if everyone in this world is the same? This will make this world a very lifeless planet.Try imagine this world is full of yourself,as if you are watching yourself in the mirror.Won't it be boring living with yourself till your death?Just take some time thinking about it.
One more thing I learned today is "Losing is not always bad".
First and for all,I lost in the badminton tournament today.Even so,I had a very open mind and accept the lost as I haven't been training all these time.It also means that there are always other people who are better and never to ego about your success.
And who those have problems who can't solved. Try thinking about this.
We are human who lives in our own house.However if we compare our problems with those people who live in Nigeria and those poor country,our problems are minor compared to them.Earth is only a very very small particle compared to the galaxy.
It's as if we are like micro-organism that we look at in the microscope.Our problems are really only very small compared in that way.Maybe this would help you have another way to look at your problem and solving them.
Friends they are important to us,but sometimes they behave in such a way that they annoys us.Agree?However this is just a natural part of being a friend.A friend will share their good times and bad times with us.We might get into an argument but we will be together at last.This bond is not easily break.There are several points of view about friendship.
To me,friendship is just like a glass block.Its transparent and we don't usually notice it.However when we notice it,it could change into a lot of view when it reflects the light.
One of my friend said,friendship is just like a glass that is fragile.It easily breaks into pieces if not handled with care.Just as like how we treat our friend.
Another said that,friendship is a bond that is so tight that nothing could seperate us.Even if we are miles away,these bond is always tighten together despite what ever happen to us.
There are so much view of friendship and you might have yours.There aren't wrong and right about friendship.Its just about how will you look at it and treat it.
To me friendship is one of the most precious gift of god.It can't be exchanged to any other thing.
Secondly,I would like everyone to appreciate with everything that you have now.You will never know when they will leave us."Appreciate everyone,everything before its too late." that's what I tell myself almost everyday.As I once lost one of my most important thing in my life.That's why I'm urging all of you to appreciate them before its too late.One day,all of us will face our death and we never know when.
Therefore before that happens,I want to let all of you know that I appreciate all of you.Even to those that I hasn't spoke to in long time.
I also want to apologize to everyone that I had offended you in anyway.I'm really sorry. Sometimes even if we met and I never said Hi or anything,it does not mean I hate you or anything.It's just that I don't know what to say and also I'm shy.However after long time this friendship will fade.But in my heart,all of you left a footprint in my heart that I will never forget.I will always remember that I once had such a great friend. Next time when we are old and we might bump into each other,remember to say hi.We will sit down and chat back the times that we are having now and perhaps laugh at it.
Lastly,I also would like to urge everyone to say Sorry if they ever made mistake or feeling guilty of doing something.I had experience of not saying this word and took the consequences of it.Saying "sorry" will help relieving yourself.However many man(I was once one of them) feel this word sorry is very hard to say and they couldn't explain why.I too can't explain why.Maybe it's man nature to not say sorry?Or perhaps man had too much pride in themselves?It's a question that only you yourself could answer.The word "sorry" must be said properly.Never ever delay the word "sorry" as you will feel more hard to say this word the more longer u prolonged it.Trust me,saying sorry and explain to them why do you apologize to them will relieve yourself a lot.Remember to explain why,or they might be in a state of confusion and misunderstood you.
I have no idea what should I put for the title,So I just simply put it as "My Point Of View".
Hope you learnt something after reading finish this post.

It's about time to say farewell

2009-07-11T09:54:00.001-07:00

Today was a very nice day.I went to KW house to stay overnight and we chatted all night long.After we woke up,we went to 1Utama since her sister is going out.
We went to play snooker and pool.Never had that much fun in playing pool.It was a great experience for me.At there,I met JK and his sister(Angela).Talk a while and we continued back to play pool.I was recommend by one of my friend to buy a Kiwi Doughnut from Apple Tree.So I did bought,but I bought 2 kiwi,1 green tea(I love green tea) and a hazelnut.I tried the kiwi back at kang wah's house.It was really as delicious as described by Ms.SL. Really owe her one for introducing me such a nice delicacy. Around 3 we reach back at KW house.Not long after that,our teacher asked us out to buy some stuff and then we went to try curry fish head.The bowl was so big when I first saw it but we managed to finish it since its so delicious.After that we went back to have tution. After finishing tution,we was planning to basketball,then changed to badminton,changed to swimming and finally decided to go "yam cha".Well,we went to a cafe to have buble tea.Learnt a lot of new games and tricks.It was overall very cool.But when I reached home,my emotion was swirled around.I found out that I have to return my laptop in few more days.So, I guess its about time to say goodbye to all that who have read my post of just started to read.I am really sad to say goodbye to all of you.I will be back but rare.I probably won't even have time to blog anymore.To all my dear friend,Sayonara and take good care of yourself.
And thanks for following up my blog so far.Bye~~~
-Yours Truly,Chi Chern-

Day By Day

2009-07-06T01:12:00.000-07:00

It's another new day.Another new story.Another Blog.Hehe
Today I was supposed to walk to school but since my friend,rashid wanted to sit a cab to school so I agreed.Recently felt quite lazy to walk to school.Don't know why.
So,as we sit in the taxi.I was actually observing the meter.Well,I calculated the distance from the traffic light in front of my house to our school.It was actually only 2.3km.This means me and rashidi only walked back with a distance of 2.3km++ which was quite disappointing.I was actually thinking we at least walked maybe around 3-4km.However it turned out another way.Next time I will take record the distance from our house to Sungai Way.Hope that this time the result will be more than 5km at least.
Anyway,after that I reached school its like normal with the Perhimpunan and everything.
Well today I have Physics to study later,BI to do,chinese to revision,modmath and add math.Probably could finish it before nite.Oh ya,talking about english.Today my english teacher was furious about some photo thingy.Well,what she said was true though. About you people won't die if you won't pay for the photo.Hehe
Walked back home after school like usual.But we took the long road,to buy some drinks.We never been to that stall for quite some time.We ordered barley for RM1.00.It's homemade and quite cheap so we like that stall quite much.After that,we went to a Pasar Mini nearby the KJMC to buy some drink.We found a new brand of drink that we usually never buy.Its CHEERS brand.It's 1.25Liter and only cost RM2.90. Its really cheap if you share with a friend to buy it.Its the same price as you buy 2 can drinks which cost Rm1.50.Buying cheers also gives you more volume to enjoy with.
So we will stick to that brand if we ever going to buy soft drink again.The best part is,it is not so gassy like other drink.You shake two or three times and release the gas out and poof there's no more gas inside.After that I went home.I was actually planning to go to the barber to cut my hair bald... But the barber shop was closed on monday.So I guessed I have to cut my hair tomorrow.Now I'm still imagining how will I look like when I'm bald.Oh ya,I met a really nice friend from facebook few days ago.Her name is Ms.SL .She's a very nice and friendly person.She somehow became my shifu.Oh ya talking about her.Today when we we're talking,some heng dai of mine bring Mr.JM to where I was standing and say "JM wanted to confess his love to you".They were joking and I get it.But suddenly,Ms.SL said:"Sifu?"
Then everyone was like "What?" in a confused state.Not long after we went back to class.Haha its really wierd isn't it?
That's all for today.Oh ya,GBP/JPY forex market was dropping tremendously today.
Earned some from that drop =)

Generation-X is on a long holiday.

2009-07-05T06:28:00.000-07:00

Yeah!The title says it all.Generation-X is on a long holiday,so we will be not hearing from Generation-X for some time.As in replace,I will share things about myself =)
My name is Chi Chern.My standart 6 friends called me chicken.Till now I still use that nickname.Although it sounds like coward,but to me it isn't.
Actually as far as you read from my first post,Generation-X is actually part of me.Just added myself into a fantasy world but all of the experience I posted was all real.As in my dark past,etc.
So,Generation-X identity has been revealed!
However the story of my life won't end that easily.
I have recently built up a web called "The Order Of The White Knight"
It's still under progression but it will help many in a lot of ways.
It will be a web you won't want to miss.
Release date will be announced soon.
The post for today is below.

Love and Like.Many people asked this question before.What is the difference between love and like?According to OXFORD Dictionary,the definition of like is to find somebody pleasant and enjoy being with them.While love is defined as to have strong feelings of affection for somebody.In my own words,I would say that love is like giving yourself to somebody but believe that they will not destroy you.Love would be very fragile if steps taken are incorrect while like can be more stable in a relationship.I could say that I like everyone that I know in my life,as in they helped me in a lot of ways.They let thought me valuable lesson that couldn't be bought with money.Loving someone is another thing.You tend to use any way to impress him/her so that they would notice you and hoping they will love you too.I'm not very good in expressing the meaning of Love.This is because I don't believe in love and its a waste of time.I know many might argue with it but its just my opinion,everyone has their own.Love to me is just garbage.It waste money,time,and knowledge that you can have without having love.Love is just another obstacle of life to me.Maybe in years my opinion towards love might change but the currently me just can't accept that love is beautiful and will not believe that love exist.Liking however is on another hand.I could like anyone as I would and without harming anything such as time and money.Plus,they are people could be our listeners and advise us.It also won't harm the relationship among two people.Unlike love couple that break-up usually won't talk to each another.I'm not saying all couple that break-up will be in that way,maybe just some of them or most of them.We won't know.However if you quarrel with a person you like,you will always have a way to be friends again no matter what.There's goes my short list about what I think about love and like =)
Maybe I am wrong but let the time teach me everything I would learn =)

Money And GX

2009-06-29T07:19:00.000-07:00

Money.Everyone has his/her own definition for this word.According to OXFORD dictionary,money is money in the form of coins or paper notes.What is it supposed to means?Definition of money is money?To GX,he has his own type of definition about this word-Money.Money is a sort of thing that you will like to have tons of it but instead you will never get that much as you imagine.It's something dark and evil.Whenever you suffer or reach until a certain point,you will always think money as the best solution but after using up all the money you had,you will regret.GX has a very good example of it.Imagine you can actually walk to a school which you always does.However when you have money,you will choose to take a cab to your destination instead of walking there.Hence,wasting the money without noticing.Until, when you are in a situation that you need money urgently.Then you will only think,why did I took cab to the shopping complex that day,otherwise I have money to pay my bills today.Maybe some of you have once in the same boat as GX.GX is trying his best to control every single cents spend on a daily basis.He brings only 50% out today but in the end of the day it only left 25% of his weekly income.Its only the first day and he only eat a plate of rice and some curry puff(A malay food and one of GX's all time favourite). Without noticing,the money just fly off like that.It's like magic.
Money disappear into thin air just within a blink.As money will be needed for his further studies,he realized that money is very important.The amount of money needed for his future is not in a small amount.It's minimum cost is a 5-digit amount.It's like a impossible amount to achieve in such a short time.Even scholarship is so hard to get.With GX's current standard, he can't even apply a scholarship.Really,its like a mission-impossible. At the moment,when he saw those cost needed for his further studies,he realized why people always ask younger generation to study hard for scholarship.It really will help,even not much.It also avoid increasing burdens on their family/parents. It's really heart-breaking to think that,a child that was raised with so much effort,to such an age with his knowledge and skills,he still yet not able to have a stable income or pay his own bills,and still need to depends on their parents.To GX,18 is the age where all of us become an adult.Where we should think and act like one.Instead of clinging onto their parents.Its the year where all teenagers should be independent.It's not a laughing matter when we are talking about money.Lastly,GX would like to give all readers a good advice.Think twice before using your money.Will you really want to buy that GUCCI handbag,or buy one at PASAR MALAM and save the rest for future use?Its your choice.However,all choices has their own consequences,so think hardly.

When Was The Last Time?

2009-06-23T08:21:00.000-07:00

When was the last time GX had took life such a serious matter.He thinks it was 2 years ago where he has lost something that he couldn't accept for some time.The time fly so fast that he didn't even notice it till now.What he is facing now is not only the coming exams but also the time he left to be spent to be a teenager is coming to an end.It's only a matter of time before the day he enjoys in the academy comes to an end.After that,he has to face the reality of life.No more schooling days,no more teachers and true friends,but only cunning fox,pressure of life,and responsibility. He always have a path ready for him to be walked on till now.The time has come to choose his own path of life,own journey,a whole new start. As this is the turning point of one life.The decision that made will make who a person will be in the future.Therefore all must make a precise decision so that one will no regret. It took some time for him to think about with the options left open for him and choices that could be made.
Friends plays a very important role in the decision as friends are very important to GX.Gx's horoscope is Virgo, and a Virgo usually take relationship between friends seriously and usually won't forgive people who toys with others feelings or friendship. However so far,there's none that concern him in that situation. He met some really interesting friends during his schooling time in the Academy.He met some jokers,some really good friend who teaches good english,some people who are good in badminton,and many more.However some of them tend not to speak to him,or maybe it's another way round.Yeah,it's definitely another way round.There's a phrase that could describe precisely what situation was it.
有些人會跟你相處很久，卻不會真的成為你的朋友。
問題在哪裡？不清楚。
為什麼會這樣？不知道。
好像他們就是該跟你認識，然後認識了之後呢？就只是這樣，真的就只是這樣
In translation:
Some people will know you for a very long time but they will never will be your friend.
What is causing it? I don't know.
Why it became like this? I don't know.
It's like they should be knowing you,but after they know you? It's just like that,really it's just like that.
A weird way to describe but what it say is true.Exact situation GX was in a long time ago.
However,GX still wishes all of his friends,everyone he once know,and all those who he has forgotten will live a very wealthy and healthy life no matter what happen.

The Expected

2009-06-17T06:14:00.000-07:00

After 2 weeks of the relaxing holiday.The time has come. To see what achievements has GX got.The result came out was expected.He didn't did well in those mission that he was struggling with except the Simple Calculations.But as far as he concern. The result was not so sastifying. However today GX get to go to one of the trip that he was actually not planning to go.A trip to the Parliament. The structure of the building was unique.The interior design was even excellent. In the dewan negara,we could see all the ahli parlimen debating.It was a rare occasion that where citizen could normally anticipate and I never regret going to the place.Other than the place being too cold,it was over-all good.After that GX and 2 of his friends,Calvin and Wong went to a FOREX SEMINAR which was actually free.They were expecting to learn some special technique or skill to calculate the buy/sell of FOREX.However, they get to know what is FOREX instead.It wasn't a total waste to go because we learnt more about FOREX and there was FREE FOOD. =)

Should GX Be Happy?

2009-05-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

The days of struggling with the mission he passed has finally came to an end. People were shouting as they finished their mission,celebrating with a cup of wine or party.However,GX felt something wasn't in place.He didn't shared the joy of everyone.
He was somehow wasn't satisfied with what he has accomplished so far.As the days of the mission come to an end,it was holiday. A total of 2 weeks rest hours for everyone in the academy.People usually is very happy with it,however he wasn't that happy with it.At least he had some rest finally he thought.But things get worst as he is back with his addiction for his long loved online game-Gunz.He hasn't touch the game for quite some time.Now he had finally laid hands on it,he wonder whether he could stop himself from his addiction towards it.He had set certain goals in his holidays.Such as revising chemicals engineering and quantum study as much as possible as he got many to catch up.As for his calculations study was not to be left out from his to-do-list too.
Today he read some others blog.One was of his friend.The blog was almost telling the bitter of life of the owner.The owner was sort of deep hurt inside.It resembles GX himself very much and GX known one thing at that instance. There are people who are facing same situation as him or maybe worst and that we will never be alone without friends and family supports.

The History Repeats Itself Again.

2009-05-22T05:05:00.000-07:00

It's the second downfall of GX.He again fails to accomplish his second given mission.How could it happen?It was a mission that he would never expect he couldn't do.As it was a mission that he favors most.Mission of The Engineering By Calculation.He excel in the mission in the past.Maybe it was his ego that had killed him this time as he think that it might be just another easy task. It can be expressed in a way that a knife had stabbed through his heart. He was so assured that he trusted in divine providence. He still have another mission assigned for the next few days. Everything didn't turn out in the way he had expected. However he had plans now. Plans for the future.So that history will not repeat itself once more.Once repeated history was very much enough for me.He will not able to survive another shocking fact about it again.However, he was comforted by a very calming sound.It was sound of Hitomi.A japanese singer. Her voice was like a angel.A angel that have cured the wounds of his.The name of the peaceful melody was "If I were a Bird".
In my darkness dream,I can hear you call me.You gave me the reason to live.
GX was touched by it.And he want's to share the song to all of you.He also would like to recommend you all to watch the anime - Code Geass-Lelouch The Rebellion,Season 1 and Season 2.He envy with the power given to Zero.If only he had the power of geass,things might change.
Here's the song,
"If I were a Bird".

The Walk That Can't Be Forgotten Forever

2009-05-19T07:48:00.000-07:00

It was late at night,GX and his partner-Rashidi had to walk back home from their Academy which is located nearly 4 kilometer from their house. The night breeze was very refreshing although its a bit terrifying. During the walk,GX and his partner saw a creature was rolling around as if it was possessed by something. Later on GX finally realized that it might just choked itself. After struggling for a while.The cat was lying down on the middle of the road with no significant of struggling anymore.Then, there was this hi-tech two-wheeled vehicle passed by the cat.The vehicle just missed the cat by 1 inch. The next one was a car.This time GX wouldn't dare to look back as he was afraid that he would see a scene where he wouldn't forget forever.So he and his partner continued their walk.As they were passing by one of their classmate house,he saw another dead rat with its internal organs splashing out.It was one of the most gross scene that he ever seen.He just say some prayers hoping they are in peace at least.They reached home around midnight.GX was dead tired by then.Once he was on the bed,he was in deep sleep.
The next day,he and his partner having two more exams.One of them was History.It's the subject GX hates the most and never studies about it.He knew the result of his HISTORY would not be a good one.So he gave up on the subject and concentrated on his following exams.His following exams on that day was the study of chemicals.It has been a year and half,but GX has no idea what it was due to his laziness.After all the EXAMS has passed,he and his partner had to walk back again.GX was lazy to walk because of the weather.The sun was shining brightly in the sky reflecting on the cars that was parked at the Academy.However,they still have to walk back due to lack of financial resources.
It was a great walk and discovered new things.The last time GX walked home using that way was 1 month ago.It certainly changed a lot. The pathway was now covered with shade of trees and branches. It was the most refreshing walk ever.Walking in the shadow of it just feels like having an air-conditioner everywhere in the afternoon.During the walk,they saw another gross scene. It was some creature dead on the middle of the pathway. It was dark in colour and had 4 legs.GX did not dare to confirm the identity of the creature,so does his partner.They continued their walk in the breeze of nature.
Suddenly,there was this wind.It was strong but calm,it blew the leaves from the tress and it looked like Senbonzakura(Cherry Blossoms) from the Anime-Bleach. Leaves was coming down from nowhere,with the wind.It was the most beautiful scene that they ever saw.The nature's beauty is really beautiful.Nothing could withstand the calmness of that moment.If only they had a camera that time,his partner said.GX agrees with it.They walked back to their houses and do their things. GX went back and relaxed his mind and felt asleep after.

The Dark Past Of The Generation-X

2009-05-17T05:57:00.000-07:00

Generation-X also known as GX, has a dark past. A past where nothing could be more dark than it.GX was once known as a bad ass.He once claimed himself as 'The God Of Ponteng". The word "ponteng" means skipping class or school illegally.During the first three years in the Academy.He joined with the friends that he shouldn't have,he did things that he
don't supposed do.During classes,he would actually ran out from class. Finding a good area and talk to his so called friend.During those times, GX was lonely and has no friend to talk to.So he found those *friends* that eventually turned him into another person.Before he knew them,he was a naive person.His everyday life was then fulfilled with joy.He enjoyed life till the moment he stepped into a new environment which he couldn't suit in. As he was falling into the the darkness,there's part of him telling him to stop but he couldn't. The dark force has controlled over his actions and mind. However there's a event, a event that he could remember forever.It changed his life since then but it was all too late. He lost two most of his precious gift from god.He would call them *The Gift Of The Goddess*.It was a gift that he never appreciated until it was too late.He was then decided to changed.His soul was once awaken.The dark force has almost vanquish completely although some parts of it was still left behind.He was able to control himself again.He was then determined to change.However his determination sometimes will fade,but he will eventually gain back some of it.
However during his recovery from his dark past,he found some really reliable friend.This time he told himself,appreciate what ever you have before it is too late.

The Downfall Of The Generation-X

2009-05-15T20:12:00.000-07:00

He had tried everything to accomplish his mission.However the last minute mission simulation did not help much when the real situation happened.Generation-X was on the frontline of the battle.He took up his pen and started writing off all the answer that he had on his mind.He was a little nervous and made some silly mistake which was dangerous because every seconds for him counts as the time was ticking off.
In the end the Imbangan Duga he did was not balanced.He was furious about it but tried to remain calm.In his mind,there only one thing he was thinking.I had to finish this mission no matter what.So he ignored the unbalanced account and proceed to the following mission. As he see the task given,he was absolute sure that he could finish the mission easily.However, things didn't turn out that well.The end result wasn't as he expected.He ignore once again the unbalanced account and proceed to the following mission.Among all the mission,there's only one mission he succeded.
After that,Generation-x was given a half-an hour break before proceeding to the next big mission. He was relaxing his brain as he didn't feel well since from the morning.
In his mind then was only with regret and sorrow.There's nothing he could do and it's all his fault for not doing more mission simulation before the real situation take place.He wanted to apologise to his Captain Dragon by calling him but all he has was his wallet and ID card.There was no money left inside the wallet only memories.Memories of how he used up all his monthly salary.His partner was also in the same boat as him. Both of them regret however his partner has other problems.
The bell rang,the time has come for his final mission of the day.He was already giving up on the mission already as he knows it is a mission imposible anymore.Among's all the Student of Captain Dragon,one them were sucessfull on the mission- Student Ming.However,he was proud of his victorious win on this mission.
But there's a word that Ming say make sense.How could we face our captain?He had tried all his best to help us and this is how we repay him.After teaching us day and night.Generation-X thinks deeply about it and feel dissapointed with himself too.
After the last mission of the day,he was depressed and tired.He went back to his room and sleep for a while.After having the refreshing and cooling bath,nothing changed at all.He was still depressed.He couldn't change anything anymore.Thinking about how dumb was him for not knowing the consequences he would meet.He slept for quite for a while due to few days of non-stop mission simulation.He woke up soon in the late evening and had his dinner.After that he turn on his messenger mobile device and started to search someone to talk too as keeping it to himself makes him more depressed.He started searching on the net for other things to make him forget about what happened today.However,the feeling of dissapointment was in him.Deeply carved into his heart,he will never forget it.It was then a friend of him came and speak to him on the mobile messenger device.He used to call his friend Nikky.They chat a while and it certainly gave some comfort to the soul of Generation-X.He was all calm then. As he was thinking about the following week's mission.He saw one of his sucessful classmate-Kit come online.And he spoked to him.Suddenly their topic became another way instead of chatting.Kit gave him some really usefull tips about one of the following mission coming.It helped Generation-X alot and he thanked Kit for those information.After that,he was living on his own world of I.T. he was finding all sorts of wierd thing with the World Wide Web(Internet).Such as the mysteries of the world,Unsolved theories and many more.He was keen on this type of stuff.What a wierd person huh?Without noticing it was already late in the midnight.He was dead-tired by then.He switch off the lights and the mobile device and then he laid on his bed.Within seconds,he felt asleep.

My Chemistry Study

2009-05-12T07:34:00.000-07:00

Today have been studying chemistry for the whole day but only somethings can be beaten into my head.Most of them not.Now also quite late already.What I can do now is just hope that what I've read will come out tomorrow.Good Luck to all who is having exams now... =)

Burning The Midnight Oil

2009-05-11T12:52:00.000-07:00

It's already 3.53 In the morning.I just finished my accounting question.(Dokumen Sumber)
I did like four questions and only one of them are balanced.Kind of tiring already. This is the second I burn the midnight oil till this hour. My head had a pimple and just burst by itself so my forehead is like bleeding now.Having quite a blurry vision.Got to rest. Still have a bit of energy left though.I need it for tomorrow chemistry

I've learnt a new thing today.

2009-05-08T09:44:00.000-07:00

I've learn a new thing today. Not all souls could be entrusted. Not all secrets should be shared.As we move along in our lives,we will learn about it.About friendship,that could have certain conflicts.It's only the matter of time before we learn about it.
I felt like I have a heart that could beat,but is consumed by darkness and emptiness.
A heart where has no nearly no more feelings.Most of the time,only feeling I had is anger and envy.What is all about it?I don't know. It was always with me. But the more I try to overcome it,it grows.I have already try my best to be as calm as the water surface yet you always have to raise it.I suppose time will cure everything that was once in me.But keeping it with me for long period of time has left a mark that could not be healed.The anger within me has grown so far that sometimes I could not control it anymore.
Having a target of life or at least so will make things better.Ignoring all those darkness power is really a hard thing without having something else to numb those darkness elements.
I don't know if there are anymore hope but I will try my best to achieve whatever I want.

My Day

2009-05-07T08:33:00.000-07:00

Today there's a lot of things happened to me... Where should I start first. Hmm..
Ok I'll start with the part where I was chased by a dog while walking home.This is not the first time though.I was walking across the Petaling Jaya Garden-a shortcut to my house. As I were passing through the place where I was once chased by 2 dogs.I saw my ex-enemies but this time the gate was closed and there was a postman delivering letter nearby.As the postman puts the letter into the mailbox of the current house,I walk as fast as I could passing by the 2 dogs without them noticing because they were busy barking the postman.This is what I did wrong.I walk along and suddenly I saw a small and cute dog.It's the type that has a lot of fur and usually white in colour.But this dog stared at me and start barking.Since the dog was like 1 meter beside of me so I didn't care much about the barking.But soon the dog started tailing me and I had the feeling that its going to pounce on me.So I looked back and saw it was ready to strike.Thankfully it didn't do so.I stared at it,while walking backwards at the same time.It stared at me too and bark a few time.Then it gave up and stood still.I was still staring at it and walking backwards till a safety distance where I could see the dog not moving anymore.After that I walked back home safely.On the way home I was thinking,maybe it was hungry or something.I walked on while thinking about it.After reaching home.I started backing up my stuff and then start installed Windows 7 Release Candidate Build 7100(latest).The most unbelievable part is.The installing process only took 12 minutes to complete!!! So far its the fastest installation I've met so far.Plus, I'm installing it into a laptop which only contains a Intel Single Core Centrino and 512MB RAM.The fun don't end there.I was expecting it will take a very long time to load or awkward performance.What came out was totally unexpected.The Windows 7 running as smooth as if I were running Windows Xp on a Pentium III processor. Everything worked like a charm.Windows 7 Ultimate contains almost everything that Windows Vista Offered but working in a less ram consuming process.Windows 7 even provided some cool games such as mahjong titans and a lot more of goodies.It doesn't have any driver or any issues so far. It support all drivers from Windows Xp to Windows Vista.Its the far most best Windows I ever used.However I have no aero interface due to my graphic card wasn't sufficient to run it but I was happy Microsoft finally made decision to make it compatible for those old-folks PC.After those moment of joy,I packed up and get ready to go tution at Sungai Way.I was like going to sleep at tution, however I managed to finish it without a yawn.After that I took a short walk from SS3-Vye Tsen's house to SS7.It took quite sometime but I made up my mind not going school tomorrow so I'll have some time to finish my revision.
At certain time,
We could no longer depends on friends or family,
We could only depends on our knowledge,
To survive,
To strive a chance,
A Glorious Victory,
Without Hesitation.
But there are certain time,
Where your friends all abandon you,
Alone in the darkness,
Would you stand on your own foot?
Or would you stay in the darkness forever?
People at times have their own conflicts,
We might not able to help them,
But we should try our best to help them.
The sayings goes 'What Goes Around Comes Around'
but is it true?
or its just a lie to make people being foolish?
I don't know.
People do throws harsh words on you,
Would you murder them with your imagination?
Or would you keep the vengeance in your heart?
For me I would Keep it to myself or find someone to talk to.
My friend, the fates are cruel.
Even the marrow is burden of promises,
Nothing shall forestall my return.

(Don't know what I'm writing... Hehe)

Over-Spending...

2009-05-05T07:37:00.000-07:00

Recently found out that I'm over-spending... I can't imagine finishing up RM50 within a day or two. Plus,having alot of debts to be pay.Even so, I still waist
alot of money on random stuff.Sometimes I dont even know where the money went...
Wierd huh? Using up all RM50 and dont even know where the money went. -.-"
Summore exam is like on next week.And I have no idea how to even make a chemical equation or Documents(Chem,Accounting). I'm trying to master at least one subject before going focus on other subject.Currently Targeting Subject-Add Math. Hehe
But I still got alot stuff to do~~~ Haiz...
Aniway till here.. gtg sleep

Embrace Your Dreams...

2009-04-24T04:31:00.000-07:00

Embrace your dreams,Protect Your Honour....That's what usually Zack says.
So shall I too.
You'll understand if you played FFVII Crisis Core.
Anyway I was playing the game for two days.Sort of addicted.
Well it shall happen no more because I have returned it(PSP) to my friend.
The mid-year examination is just around the corner.Haiz... How time flies...
It's about time to wake up. =)
Before its too late... Tomorrow there's a trip to Malacca.Too bad I'm not going although most of my friends went. My brain is almost going to overheat due to limitless information coming inside it.Things get worst when I know that Trigonometry Functions is coming out in the mid-term examination. Our tution teacher said that it will be tougher than our last year's training(which is almost like hell -.-).Can you imagine, finishing 4-5 different book on one chapter?And in like less than one week time? That was only one chapter. Now we have 11 Form 4 chapters and 4 and a half form 5 chapters.... finishing it less than 2-3 weeks time. I'm going to be insane sooner or later. Don't forget about modern mathematics and Accounting. Hope I could survive till the day come.What target I have in mind? All those subjects that I have gone for tution. BM,Add Math, Mod Math, Accounts, Physics.
These are the main subjects that I can't afford to fail. I'm giving up on Sejarah due to my brain overheating.
P.S. I have only slept around 2-3 hours a day since last monday. My brain is not functioning at its top performance. Hope it will be soon.
That's for today =)

21st April 2009

2009-04-21T08:25:00.000-07:00

Last time used to blog before... Then stopped for unknown reasons. Well here goes.
By Getting our mid-term exam time table.I was really scared yet nervous when I was looking through the paper, checking when is it that we having our add math, accounts and mod math exams.Guess what? Our Add Math 2 is exactly 1 month from 2day(21st May). Thinking of the time I have to complete whatever that I'm unable to complete,I was getting a headache.Can you imagine, you have olny one month or less to complete one and a quarter year of knowlegde.Not olny one subject but more than 5. Calculating the time that I have. My time are running out. Anyway just letting out myself to blogging to relax.Chemistry... I've dropped the subject at the start of the registration of SPM but I change my mind last second.Now I had add on my burden just more...I havent even studied my form 4 Physics and now I need to start my chemistry all from nothing to form 5.However, I told myself that I should be expecting this to happen since the day I change my mind.I also think it is better to suffer now than later. Apporximately 6 months we are gonna face our SPM. If we cant even pass this mid-term exam.What could you say for yourself?
I just hope I got someone to share my burden or at least someone to talk to. But there's too much problems yet to be solved.Plus, my chinese isn't that good and I still took it.I don't know how am I going to survive this storm but I will try my best.
In school,I cant even focused anymore.90% of the time at school I'm not listening to the teacher now.I dont know what the hell is going on but I am really confused and head-aching about it.
Looking on the bright side,at least I still have some time to change my current life before regretting. They use to say time is gold.I finally understood what it means now.To me it's really gold now.And time wait for no man. Hope everything is fine tomorrow and so on.
Lastly hope Jian Long forex account is succesful. Not for my personal but also for him,his family and everyone who go to his tution.Jian Long, GOOD LUCK!!
Till then...

P.S. This is a nice song from our malaysian band! =)